Inner Workings

 When life gives you lemons paint that shit gold. The words of atmosphere. Everything is perception; perception based on previous experience, thought process, assumptions, hope and fears. It is like when you go outside first thing in the morning to discover the rain pouring down, you see a pile of dog crap in your yard and you realize you haven't put the coffee on. The day is over before it even began. On the other hand, if you pause long enough to raise your head up out of your gloomy misery you may notice that the clouds are shifting allowing the glow of the sun to break through, or that your neighbour is coming over with a doggy bag to remove that pile of crap and as you put your hand in your pocket you remember that your coffee card has been punched enough times that your next visit is a FREEBIE. Everyone loves a freebie!
 Life keeps on living even when you close the door. The movie keeps rolling even if your hands are over your eyes... and we all know that eventually we are going to peek to get a glimpse of what is going on outside of us. There is no real way of telling how things are ultimately going to play out, but at the end of the day it is going to play out. A friend of my once said it is so difficult to swim upstream, but if you let go you just flow. 
 To truly understand that "control" is a man made term, and to realize that "control" is an absolutely absurd concept,  is freedom. The freedom to accept that the only thing constant in life is change, and with change comes a lot of diversity, and with diversity comes a lot of opportunity. Opportunity to discover what we are made of, what matters and who matters. There will always be questions.. and knowing me I am going to try to uncover as many of the answers as possible... only to study and ask more questions. My man says that happiness is "peace of mind". I was blown away, as I seriously thought "peace of mind" really meant "I will give you a piece of my mind" and being under this assumption I had no problem telling myself where to go and how to get there. However, being the type of person to examine and analyze I now understand that happiness is the ability to become friends with your mind.

And did you know?? In the thesaurus a synonym for analyze is "to beat a dead horse"... Now, that is something to ponder.