Watching the Flow of It

I don't know about you but I definitely know that for me there are times when the soft tone of enchantment gets to me and not in a way that makes me want to rush forward but, actually, retreat back into myself. I wonder sometimes if "that sound" the whisper of "oh breath in and expand your beauty" even makes any sense at all. I am confused, as to the meaning of the sentiment, but at the same time I completely understand. I am not too sure if it is a disbelief that I hold an inner beauty or if I find it cringe-worthy to admit that it lives somewhere deep inside of me. On the other hand I find it so easy to see that beauty in other people... even if I am triggered by the words that come out of their mouth. 

I wonder sometimes if words are tricks or if they are actually the true intention of the message someone is trying to get across. I guess it can be both. There will always be the cryptic messages and there will also exist the blunt forced blow of words that leave you gobsmacked. Those moments of latter live for good while in my head. I may remember the essence of the soft winded angelic whisper of love as it breezes over my mind but trust me.... I will remember the words of a blunt forced fixed idea. That shit is intense. It will wake a person up. 

In those moments I can not decide whether to argue my point, listen to the other point or just stand back as a third person and witness the interaction that is happening between myself and the other. I have these internal conflicts where I question my reasoning for arguing, wondering if that it is just a way to let my ego survive or if it is my duty of Human Care to stand up to the atrocities that I feel are coming out of a persons mouth. It is a real dilemma for me. 

I realize though time and time again you can not call a person an asshole unless they believe they are an asshole. If a person believes what they are saying is "The Truth" I think it may be better to listen and share your observations with the people around you in hopes to gain an insight on objectivity. If science is about creating experiments to identify an outcome, personal interaction is the experiment I will continue to experience. People say the weirdest shit sometimes. 

The more rules that a person creates to engage in the interaction they want to experience the more control they are demanding of that interaction. I am willing to take part in the observational aspect of the "controlled test" but to me that does not identify the floating variables. If one of the first rules of science is to tolerate uncertainty - who knows what the real answer is anyways?