The worldly acceptance that a new date brings new beginnings, a fresh start - a redo, when really it is a continuation. A milestone to continue doing what you are doing or alter your course. I like to create themes: a focal point on what I would like to develop further, something to be more aware of something to direct my energy too.. becoming witness to the way I interact on a daily basis. Unconditional love is the theme of development. Loving what "is" for what it is and recognizing that whatever "it" is is carving out it's own experience. I see that there are times that I want to encourage people in a certain direction, that I feel their life can be fuller if they experience A B or C.... but just because I may feel that something has a certain benefit, it does not mean the other person has to explore that option. Information without intent but rather information for the sake of informing - providing a resource that can be utilized whenever or if that person finds it for them-self. Unconditional love sees that through someones journey all we need to do is be there, in mind, body and understanding. I accept you for you and I accept you for who you are becoming and who you will be. It may not mean that we will "like" everything that a person does and that is okay.. it is not about judging but rather to discern. When it comes to redoing something I feel that whatever has happened has already occurred so it is about trying again and developing from where we were, from what we learned and creating an idea of what we would like to see... all the while letting go of expectations! Hahahahaha! What!? You mean I can't have expectations? Well, I guess we can have expectations, I have just noticed that expectations can lead to disappointments as there is this underlying message that says: through expectation comes the idea that I will only be satisfied IF "this" happens. Which is kind of shit. In reality so many different outcomes that were unexpected, spontaneous or out of "no where" can create immense Joy. I feel it is important to have hope - an idea of how you would like to feel rather than what it is intended to look like. To love and to love unconditional is to allow ourselves the opportunity to experience our growth and life while appreciating the journey of those around us - And when you find love in a person for their mind, their heart, their words and their spirit something beautiful happens.. You let go and watch their magic unfold. Letting go of control brings a sense of peace and the reminder that we are all alone in this together. Enjoy this now!! (and dance:))
Change. That shit can just rock up and turn a world upside down... even with the knowledge that change is inevitable, my goodness can it be painful. Even if a situation does not directly affect you it can affect so many aspects of your life.... and when I say you what I am really saying is me. Questions arise, memories unfold, understanding takes place, latching onto hope and deterioration of fixed ideas begin to unravel and the response to this can be emotional. In moments like these people become human. Families become families and the realization of how much each individual means become highlighted. Everyone is something different to someone else, the title may be the same, but the relationship varies. Neither negative or positive just individual. The amazing thing is that the "core person" is known, their intention is felt and their vibration is understood. I am noticing that when situations change it doesn't mean that everything is falling apart, rather it is a new territory being discovered. I am hopeful that lessons that need to be learned are understood, the messages are heard and hearts will be open and forgiving. Each and every one of us has the power to be ourselves and sometimes that is daunting task but in the end that is all we can ever be. The more we understand who we are and what means what to us the more we can be the truth that we seek. As life changes around us, we may not have control but we have the option to be who we are to the people around us. I am thankful that the people in my life are the toilet paper to my verbal diarrhea.
Honour yourself. I had no idea what this meant for the longest time, I mean I could understand the image-or the idea that we are all living beings in need of accepting ourselves- but honouring ourselves?? What the hell. So many words, so many concepts, so many ideas that seem similar enough to the next that one may be dismissed. My mind becomes racked from time to time... then that moment occurs where the distinction between the word settles in. Oh. I see how this works. It comes so unexpectedly and intertwined with a recent experience that the experience becomes the catalyst. A moment of empathy is lived and the understanding of why a phrase or a meaning or an idea came to be in the first place. There is a reason. Back to the point: Honouring yourself. It could be seen as accepting yourself, listening to yourself, being aware of how you feel, understanding the reasons why you may be experiencing a particular sensation but it is mildly different. Honouring oneself is the capability to respect the variety of sensations, thoughts and experiences you are going through without trying to alter, change or mind screw them. Those feelings are just as valid as any other one. For example.... I find having intense negative feelings towards a person very difficult to handle, if someone belittles me I shrink. If I feel bullied I am intimidated and I try to make the situation light - I remove myself because I must be the problem. When in all actuality I have just as much right to be existing as anyone else. I find that I repress my "negative" thoughts as I believe they are unkind. Harming someone intentionally is unkind, abusing my power is unkind, emotionally manipulating someone is unkind - Existing is not. To feel is how we survive and to think is natural... I hope we all take the time to understand our inner lives, it makes for authentic shared world. If you have a "negative" thought it does not mean it is bad or wrong.. it means you had a thought, so honour it, respect it and see it for what it is.. a reaction to a situation that affected you. Channel that shit and make a sticky moment into something awesome, then create a beat and dance to it!
Carrying your life on your back can be heavy sometimes; especially when you have to carry that crap through subway stations, airports, on buses and through crowds of people. I find that I am very much in the moment when I have my back pack and it is rush hour on the underground.. I become very aware of the people around me, the vibes they are shooting out and the heat that is in the space. A piece of advice: stay close to the exit with your back against the wall: this way a pathway is created and consideration of the daily transistor maintained. It is interesting what is important to you when you are packing your bag compared to what is essential when you are on the road.. the two do not necessarily coincide very well.... Time and time again I tell myself minimal is best, is it light, it is easy.. but I never get light enough. Attachment to belongings and memories that they hold can be captivating when trying to sort out the relevance of what is the most useful. I have succumbed to talking to my belongings and thanking them for their time before letting them go. They were good to me, and appreciation is well deserved. Advice point 2: Books are awesome, but knowledge is weighted. The amount of books, journals, and information accumulated over my travels is intense.. there is a part of me that wont allow myself to become fully immersed in the technological world. To have a piece of information in my hands allows me to feel it's truth, but if everything is just a reflection of light, I have found comfort in the illusion. The senses are a wondrous thing. Advice point 3: Look at your adventure as a piece of magic. Magic is unproven science; one day the unexplained may be explained but until then continue being amazed. I know planes fly in a very logical way.... but come on; Logic is messed up!
The adventure continues, the story unwinds, the characters unknown and the themes a mystery. Like a pirate searching for treasure, a map is laid out but story is all in the ride. It amazes me the connections that are made, the themes that are understood and the realities of personal defaults that arise. Observation of humanity is never boring and be open to the opportunity of witnessing is a trip within its own. When a moment presents itself and the truth dawns the past, present and future fall into place. The moment of AHA's. My Dad has said to me that anxiety is chaos where intuition is calm. Understanig who you are and what part you play allows the choice to stop, reflect and change course. What a beautiful understanding that is. There is always a choice. Only when you know the option is available can the choice be made. Such a powerful moment to know that you are the director of your movie. And in all honesty, people are beautiful, people are kind and this world has so much light in it I can only be excited to see what happens.
Whoop whoop whoop and a holler holler holler... try not to think about what you are going to write just write and see what comes up. The message is clear and simple: you can only be you and no one else. Walk each step that is being walked, breath each breathe while breathing and stop for a minute. Stop to smell the flowers, hear the birds or watch the random person walk into a glass door that they were unaware of. Look about and see what is going on. I promise that you will be amused. The person picking their nose that thinks they are going unseen..... I saw you. The two lovebirds making quick glances at each other... I saw that too. If you look close enough nothing really goes unseen, someone somewhere saw something; which makes for an interesting story. For every viewpoint that you may have, there will be another twist or angle presenting the information in a new light. I may see an event a particular way and I am certain that is the way of it.... only to be side slapped by a convincing and accurate (but different) account of the same situation. The pot becomes fuller. Each view is a percentage that allows for a new degree of insight. Absolute answers are ridiculous, they are always proven wrong. Passion is the drive that motivates an ambition that ignites a desire to uncover. Acceptance is the understanding that each moment creates a moment that can lead to somewhere you may never know. Be prepared for the unexpected and expect nothing.. and in all fairness it wouldn't hurt to have speakers so you have a sound track playing for the journey.
When you finally let go, you realize how tightly you were holding on. Wonder thoughts uncovered through wander day activities. Life of a constant thinker digs out the gold from time to time... which leads to more thinking. If it takes a stronger person to turn around and walk away than it does to fight I am curious about the people that stand up for their beliefs? I personally think it takes a lot of discipline, strength and commitment to hold your ground. I mean, it is one thing to argue for the sake of winning - to be right - but to stand for your belief because it is true to you, can be sooooooooooooo hard. I also understand that just because something is done a particular way does not mean it is the right way for everybody. Everyone has a personality and a way about them that leads them into the direction they are going. Leading by example does not mean that others are going to follow exactly but hopefully an individual is inspired to be their own trail blazer. I think often about the people I care about and I am constantly learning being around them. I start to understand the variety of people that are harbored in this world; I see the differences in approaches, the similarity in need and the adaptations in vocabulary presenting information in a multitude of ways and all I am able to do is observe. Observe the way relationships unfold, how connections are made, how love is expressed and how it is so vastly different. For me to say A + B always makes C is ridiculous. It just does not work that way. When a person is being truly who they are, in the situation they are in, they are being exactly what is needed for them and the people around them. If I needed advice I would probably seek out someone that could challenge me that way I can figure out if I am speaking shit or not.
