Full of It.

Lost in words, thoughts and symbols. Trying to understand the feeling associated with a thought and an action without attaching to the fear of the reason. For those of us lucky enough to have time to think about our inner worlds, the stream of questions never seems to end. I feel that if we are not living in a moment of crisis - concerned about the basics of shelter, food, water and life - we are provided the space to work on the inner conflict. Smoothing out the waters that flow beneath the everyday. The current that leads us through the everyday.

You take away the immediate crisis and something lurks. The hope is that hope is the base on which everything is building. Hope is the seed that plants in our deepest thoughts - living among the fears that speak to us with a quiet reminder that things can change. To hope that hope still exists is hope within itself - relative optimism. Around me I can hear low vibrations of conversation and I can't help but try to interrupt the frequency with a surge of "but when's". It must become irritating when a person is lost in their desperation to have an outsider perk in with a perceived "optimism" or at times what others my see as a "delusional positivity" but what else can we do? I understand the importance to recognize people where they are at and to acknowledge their individual experience.... but I will not enable the darkness to solidify.

I do not feel that it is optimism that we are seeking but rather we are holding onto a hope that things can change. If the only thing constant in life is change then change is bound to happen and based on that I hope our despairs lift so we can see the world we are all living in.

I feel that everything is a reflection of polar opposites, to such a degree, that the opposite of one action may seem small and insignificant but as you pull your view further and further away you see the connections of the small things leading to the larger things. If we can master the observational standpoint of our thoughts and feelings while being accountable to the part we play in our own life we will have a chance to make it through.... Hopefully.